Pastor, can you hear me? Where are you? I have something I want to tell you. I died last night. I was out partying with a few buddies of mine at the clubs. You know that I was having a hard time and all with the divorce I went through, and from the guilt of those two men I killed in the war. I was so terribly lonely, but during that season you comforted me with the scripture that says “It’s not good for man to be alone,” and, “Submit yourself to every ordinance of man.” So I remarried, but even my new wife couldn’t fill the emptiness inside my broken heart. I remained in the service, but even the scripture you gave me did not put my mind to rest.
Anyways, we went to Bugsy’s, “only had a few drinks”, and watched “the game”. Overall it was a quiet night, except for those preachers standing outside, with their what—I thought at the time—was STUPID signs, that said, “To be married to the divorced is adultery” “True Christians fight sin, not war” “The desire for wealth ends in hell” and “God hates Immodesty”. You told me that God doesn’t hate anything, that He only loves, because, “God is love”. You also told me that I did not have to obey Jesus to be saved from God’s wrath, but that I only needed to trust in His atoning sacrifice for my sins to avoid it.
My buddies laughed them to scorn as we hastened to get passed them, but I only despised them in my heart. The teachings you condemned they were publishing through signs! I thought to myself, “How could these men stand here doing this?” Nevertheless, I chose to believe you, and I didn’t have time to think about their signs. Besides, I was anxious to get home to my family and we wanted to make it to your 9:00 morning service tomorrow.
However, as we were on our way home, a huge deer—a fourteen point buck—jumped out in front of my car. So I swerved to miss it, only to run off the road into a tree. It wasn’t long until all I saw was darkness.
I died thinking about my REAL WIFE and my children. I died thinking about THE MEN I KILLED during the war, and all of the mistakes I made. I died thinking about how I lived my life. I died in confusion: Because all of the things you taught me to ignore, and the things that seemed right to you [THAT I FOLLOWED] were suddenly suffocating my mind. All of the times I allowed you to calm my nervous and fearful heart with your smooth words and flattering speeches are appearing now to mock me. But you know who I am thinking about now pastor? I am thinking about you.
But before I continue, there is something you should know: YOU WERE WRONG. I can feel the heat emanating from the fires of hell which are not far away. It is like the ground beneath me is shifting me closer and closer to the burning sun and I have nowhere to run to.
Pastor: You lied to me and taught me to despise those who told me the truth! In fact, you had a scripture to support every lie.
Oh, how I am tormented in this flame! I have no relief! And it seems to get worse realizing that it will only get worse, and that I will never experience relief from this miserable place!
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“For the leaders of this people cause them to err; and they that are led of them are destroyed.” (Isaiah 9:16)
“For they that are such serve not our Lord Jesus Christ, but their own belly; and by good words and fair speeches deceive the hearts of the simple.” (Romans 16:18)
“But there were false prophets also among the people, even as there shall be false teachers among you, who privily shall bring in damnable heresies…And through covetousness shall they with feigned words make merchandise of you: whose judgment now of a long time lingereth not, and their damnation slumbereth not.” (2 Peter 2:1, 3)
“And with all deceivableness of unrighteousness in them that perish; because they received not the love of the truth, that they might be saved. And for this cause God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie: That they all might be damned who believed not the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness.” (2 Thessalonians 2:10-12)
“Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.” (Galatians 5:19-21)
If after reading this, you have questions about marriage, divorce, adultery, war, killing, or how to be saved from God’s wrath, you may reach me at: